My world has always felt different. As a child I was shy, withdrawn. It's hard to play the fit in game when you know deep down that you don't.





































Monday 2 December 2013

Litlle things.. nothing much

In the morning I heard a girl say my name. Was a bit shocked but I just turned over and went to sleep.

I keep seeing things in the living room from the corner of my eyes, but I wonder if that's just my eye's playing tricks.

Was very sure I saw a black shadow figure in the doorway about a week ago.

Lots of white mist like things floating around lately.
 

Thursday 7 November 2013

Cat Nap Chat

During my cat nap today someone walked into my dream, sat on the bed in real life & said my name in my ear. Of course being me I woke up straight away, then came that weird time where I kept thinking I was awake but I wasn't.

At first I thought he was someone I knew but then I realized I didn't know that voice. 

I don't remember all that was said to me because I was trying so hard to get out of the dream like state I was in. 

He spoke calmly and softly in my ear. sometimes I was awake and sometimes I was stuck in-between. I remember the end half very well.
He told me to look at him, So I turned to look but nothing was there (I don't recall if I was stuck in-between or if I did it in real), I turned away to carry on trying to get up. Next he said "see", I moved my hands & feet till they moved in real. I stopped and was about to open my eyes when he said "I need you"

I pulled off the cover but noticed my legs we bare, I had fallen asleep in my leggins, I moved my hands & feet again and this time opened my eyes right away and pryed one eye open with my fingers.

I know some will think I was just asleep or that it was sleep paralysis, I've had that a few times and its alot different. 

I don't know how he wants me to help, all I know is that this is escalating really quickly... am I really ready for where this is heading?

Friday 1 November 2013

Curent Voices...

I forgot the other night I heard that faint distant voice again "Help me!" No idea ho I am meant to do that for her...

 Onto last night, I had drifted off to sleep when the next thing I know someone is whispering my name in my ear, would make sense that he knows my name by now

Thursday 31 October 2013

Hand...

Last night I got the feel of someone standing behind me after I pulled up the cover.
They lent over me, reached out there hand and started to touch the back of my head. There was a strange tingle where their fingers were.
It seemed like it went on for a while. All I did was squeeze the bed sheet and slightly wonder why anyone would want to touch my head.

When it finally stopped I felt something pass through me and out the room. When it passed through me it just felt like intense black nothingness . . .  I dunno how else to describe it.
I guess it was like closing your eyes in the rapids at a swimming pool and letting yourself drift.

Wednesday 23 October 2013

Each Night.. Strage Night & The Distant Voice

Since Poppy went away, when i go to bed I hear her sometimes.
Last night I watched  as Daisy ran around her cage playing with something. She would dart from one side to the other and tumble around, just like she did when they used to play together.
Plus every now and then i would see something move in the cage, first thought is that it is Daisy, but then she would move and she would be on the opposite side of the random movement I saw.

I also could hear someone talking to me, but they sounded so far away that I could barely make out what they were saying.
The only bit I managed to hear was when I started thinking to my self if Poppy was in the cage with Daisy and they said to me "She's there"
I tried asking questions like "why is she still here?" but they were so quiet that I couldn't make out a thing. In the end I had to tell them that I just couldn't hear them. 

I'm sure there will be more happening tonight, and maybe even for a while.

Sad Sunday

On Sunday night sadly Poppy passed away. 
While I sat there on the bed crying and thinking that maybe there was something more I could of done, I heard the little noises she used to make.

She had been very ill for a while and would go up & down alot in health.

I looked at the cage and nothing was there, her sister was running around on the bed. I turned back at her little body and the thoughts slowly creeped back in there.  
once again I heard the noises. I looked around again and listened to see if it was coming from outside, but ever time I did this it would stop. I even got up once to listen outside.

The noise happened less and even stopped once I sopped thinking that i could of done more.  
I wonder if that was her way of telling me not to think like that because I did all I could..? 
I hope that's true.

Wednesday 9 October 2013

Distant voice

Few nights ago I went to bed feeling very ill. My head hurt to the point where it made me feel sick. 
I closed my eyes and tryed my best to relax. After a minute I heard a woman say my name, to which I freaked out. But I soon relised it didn't, per say, come from within the same room as me.
I had the feeling like it was somewhere I couldn't get to. 
I do not know why she said my name, but it was said softly.

Sunday 8 September 2013

A Fly!


I was in the bathroom washing my hands and saw a little black thing zoom away from me in the cabinet mirror.
I started hunting around for a fly in hope, but nothing.
Door was shut and so was the window. I looked in every corner and found nothing. If it was a fly then it was a big one which leaves the question 'where did it go?'

Getting use to my new home???

It feels like I'm going mad. Always seeing moving objects just to the side of my vision. Slowly getting used to it... I think.
Maybe if it's a nice spirit I can get the hang of this... but thats most likely just wishful thinking.

Friday 30 August 2013

Another New Home


Yep I have moved... hence why I have not posted for a while.

I wish I could say I moved into a new place with no spirits as of yet ... but sadly no.
The spirit here seems nice but it will take time to get used to it.
It's in every room.... theres been white orbs, black orbs, white mists, strange noises, black masses and when upstairs are out you can here someone walking around up there.
It is Friday now which means tonight upstairs will be out and who ever it is will be walking around..... kindda fun really ^u^

Tuesday 9 July 2013

Peek! 'n' Boo?

Was talking to our friend last night while my hubby had a nap and because of the heat we had the living room door open.
I saw someone stick their head around the corner and asumed it was my hubby who hd woke up and was seeing waht we were doing, but when I looked at the door no-one was there.
I didn't tell our friend about it until he started hearing someone moving about behind him (which is where the door is). I saw the same person poke there head around the door again and assumed it was my hubby again because they were around the same hight.

A it harder to post at the moment due to new room arrangement, but I will update / add more when ever I get a chance.

Sunday 23 June 2013

The Wave

Back when I was in my old room.... My dad tucked me in and turned the light off then went to the toilet. This is the room that had the big mirror standing on the floor.
If I looked at the end of the bed all I would see is the door (which was always left open when I was alone), so if I wanted to see into the hallway I had to look into the mirror.

I saw my dad leave the toilet and go to my brothers room (which was right next to mine), then I saw some ones arms poke out from around the corner of my brothers room. I could not see who they belonged too because the wall was in the way. They did some wave movements with their arms.
I don't know why but I smiled and giggled slightly. 
They pulled their arms back and that was that.
I never asked my dad if it was him. I know deep down that it was not him.
It never happened again.

Wednesday 19 June 2013

Night-time/Daytime 2

About 8am I went to bed... I shut my eyes a could hear a few drunk foreign people talking outside. I tried my best to block them out as their voices started to vanish into the night.
Silence, for a few seconds, then a girl singing 3 words "(????) you see" She had a beautiful voice.

Monday 17 June 2013

Old School Building 1

I spent alot of my school holidays at an school in London called N.L.C.S. It was a big school and split up into different buildings.
The main building was know as the old school/building, due to it being the first bit built and used as a school.

You will hear more about this building because it used to scare me to death.
But I loved one bit of it. The garden right next to the building was my sanctuary.
The only way to get to it was to go past bits that scared me.
But in summer the garden would be lit up with beautiful flowers and so was well worth it.

Anyways I always felt a girl in the garden and she made it feel like home.
One day in summer I was walking around the pillars and looked at my sister who was leaning over at the middle Section where I have been told a boat statue used to be.
I saw a flash of a white figure standing next to her. I knew it was the girl right away. I walked halfway to my sister and called her to me. I told her what I saw and we kindda left it at that really.


This is the best picture of the garden that I could find. The pillars are just to the left of the picture. Can't find one that shows them.

Friday 7 June 2013

Spot Light

The biggest orb I have ever seen must of been around 10-15cm and was completely solid.
About 10 years back.. (I think) ... My sister sneaked out, as always back then, and left me alone in her room... (I was staying over and sleeping in her bed) ... now being scared of her room meant that I would hid under the cover.
I couldn't breath properly so I moved the cover slightly away from my face.
I thought the cover was still mainly blocking my view of the room, but when I opened my eyes I saw an giant orb just to the end of the bed moving towards the long mirror she had leaning up against the wall.
I  freaked out and hid under the cover and forced my self to go to sleep.
I don't think I ever told her about it

Wednesday 5 June 2013

Seeing Double

I must of been around 13 at the time.
Just sitting in the living room and felt something weird. I looked to the rats cage and saw a white rat leaning up on the glass.
Now our rat at the time was white but something about the one I was seeing seemed odd.
My brother was looking out the window and my dad was doing something at the other end of the room. I stood up and very slowly started walking towards the cage.
The rat vanished and I walked faster. When I got tot he cage I looked in and saw the rat curled up and sleeping in the corner. It wasn't him I saw.
When I thought back about the rat I saw I realized that everything about when was white and their eyes were slightly see through.
This was the first time I saw her. She was the rat we had before him and it was her old cage that he lived in.

Thursday 30 May 2013

Light!

For about an hour or so now I keep seeing white things from the corner of my eyes. It comes from different places from the room and verys from mists to orbs and flashes. 
Normally I pass these things off as just my eyes playing tricks but it doesn't normally keep happening. Plus when I see something on one side of the room it will move about that side and I will see something move from one side of the room to the other before seeing on that side of the room. So the things I'm seeing are not really random.
So to help me feel less scared I started talking to it.
Lol just saw a very nice orb.... about 3 cm's. I'll get the phone and see if they are will to show them selfs up on a photo for everyone... as I'm sure they are seeing me write this. 
Will add if I get anything.

Sadly it left not long after first posting this... oh well :D

Monday 27 May 2013

Dreaming?

Last night I had another moment where I was not sure if I was dreaming or not.
The last few nights I have been taking the phone with me and recording for a wile to see if I can catch any voices... nothing has happened for a few days now.
I stopped the phone and went to sleep. At some point I believe i woke up and someone started talking. It took alot for me to speak.... can't remember if  I said it in my mine or out loud but I said 'Wait a minute' And tried my best to move from the fear. Then I rolled onto my back and it is at this point that I am not sure if I woke up from a dream  or just cos I was half asleep.
At any rate I rememberer mu phone was down the side and I couldn't be bothered to get it. So  just went back to sleep (~ T - T ~) I know I should of got it and then maybe I would have a voice for everyone to hear but all my thoughts were about going back too sleep.

Friday 24 May 2013

Awww love how cute!

Almost a year go now, I woke up and was thinking about getting out of bed. I decided to just hug my hubby for a while. I snuggled up to him and shut my eyes.  The second I shut my eyes a woman's voice started commenting about what I assume was me hugging my hubby. The only but I got was the last word she said which was 'Love'. 
Then I felt her go inside me. It felt like she push aside my soul a bit and wedged herself inside. My body thought against this. After a minute I felt her leave. 
I have never felt this before but I assume she tried possess me or something along those lines.

All I can say for certen is it felt weird and there is no room for anyone else in here.

Night-time/Daytime 1

Called 'Night-time/Daytime 1' cos I don't know how long this is going to go on for.



Night-time:

Anyways hubby just fell asleep so I snuggled up to him. I shut my eyes and hear a mans voice mutter something. Scares the crap out of me but pass it up to hubbys sleep talking. Snuggle back up to him again, this time he turn his face towards me and I can fell his breath on my face. This time a mans voice said something but much clearer than last time and I new it wasn't my hubby sleep talking. Could make out what he was saying due to my hubbys breathing.


Daytime:

Woke up and saw it was still too early to get up. Turnt around and started going back to sleep... I don't know if I feel asleep straight away but it felt like someone came into the bed room. They walked around the bed and up to my head. Sat down on the bed. I remember feeling the bed move when they sat down but didn't see anybody.
Then a great pressure on my whole body. Everything got darker and I was struggling to move. I found that I could move my arms about but could not control them. I managed to turn towards my hubby and tried my best to hit him with my arms. After I hit him a few times the weight lifted and I took a deep breath. I hardly ever have dreams that seem so real O-o so I dunno... that ones up too  you.

Thursday 23 May 2013

The Old Hag

I have tried looking this up on the internet but will only ever find accounts on some ugly old woman tormenting people, trying to suck out their life force and that kind of thing.

My experience with the old hag was different.

In the middle of dreaming weird things as always. I was standing in the middle of the street when a weird feeling came over me. The feeling of something not being right and as if something had invaded my dream that was not meant to be there.
I turned around and a couple of yards away was an old woman. Now for some reason it is hard to remember what she completely looked like.
I remember she had a long flowing dress/skirt on but I knew she was floating off the ground. Eyes shut. Her face was full of love, with a loving smile but covered in wrinkles. Her hair was up in what I believe was a bun.
Her arms were stretched out, as if wanting a hug. The only thing was she struck me with fear. She was slowly floating towards me and the fear I felt was something I hadn't felt for a long while. My body screamed for me to wake up and so I did. 

Now when I was a kid I used to have alot of nightmares, so just as people teach them self's to lucid dream I tough myself  to wake up. Its a nice trick to learn. When a bad dream starts my body and mind will say to me that I'm dreaming and to wake up.


Thinking it was a one off I went back to sleep. A big mistake.

I had been dreaming for a while... from what I remember I was working in a restaurant or something along the lines.
I had to take the rubbish out the back. The bins were next to the door, which I shut behind me as you would, and behind me was a metal fence and it went beside me and attached to the wall of the building I had just came out off.
I was just about to go back inside when I got that feeling again. I looked to my right and there coming towards me was the old hag again... her loving face smiling at me again. Fear coursed though my very soul. And this time I was trapped.

She had come up the ally way through the only way possible. Behind me was a dead end. I quickly tried the door but it was shut. My entire existence screamed at me, what ever would happen if she got me would be a fate worse than death and there would be no-way out.
Once again my body and mind told me to wake up... but something was wrong. No matter how hard I tried it wasn't working. She was getting closer and closer and my body was screaming loader and loader at me. That's when it stopped trying to wake me up the normal way and told me to scream.

My only hope was to scream out load and have my hubby hear. I tried to scream... but no sound came out... not in the dream or in real. I shut my eyes and tried over and over untill this little tiny mouse volume scream came out of my mouth in real and woke me up.

This is the only time I have ever woke up screaming. I stayed awake after that and it took me a while to fall asleep that night cos I was so scared that she would be back.

I have never seen her again and never want to.

Stairs

Walking up the creeky stairs  used to always hear someone say stuff to me from the balcony. After a while I used to stop and ask what they said but I never did find out what.... stupid noises stairs stopped me from hearing her properly.

Walk in center?

At first it was nice having nothing in the house (still is) but I'm start to feel like a freaking walk in center.... It seems more and more that random ones are walking in and saying weird things to me while I'm in bed.

Today I was lying in by cos I didn't want to get out yet but was awake. 
"hay" Opened my eyes looked about and carried on just lying there


Friday 17 May 2013

Shouting Whispers

At about 6-7pm I  went for a nap cos I only got 4-5 hours sleep least night.
Lying down for a few minutes I heard someone whisper something short. 
I pretended no to hear it. The person then whispered it to the point of nearly shouting to get my attention. I couldn't make out what they were saying but it seemed only about 3 words long. 
It stopped with that.


Things are happening more and more lately.

Forgotten Shadow

It slipped my mind but I have seen another shadow figure. 
It happened in the middle of the night for a split second so I forgot.

I have sleeping problems.... one of the problems I have is that I wake up for a few minutes every hour or so.
I woke up at some point and opened my eyes. Just a few feet away from me was a shadow figure leaning slightly over the cage (had a guinea pig in at the time), strangely thought nothing of it and went straight back to sleep again

Wednesday 15 May 2013

Foot-Tastic

Just a little random thing that happened about half a year ago.

Was talking to my hubby while looking at the floor. 
(We both were sitting on the floor for some reason that I can't remember)
Turned my head to the side slightly, and in the gap between my hubby's leg and foot I saw a dirty foot and an ankle. (couldn't see more cos hubby was in the way) 
It was only for a split second and I didn't find it scary... just weird.


OH! just for random info... it would of been the persons right foot & they would of been face my way.

Monday 13 May 2013

Shadow People

I have only ever seen 2 shadow people in my life time so far.

My first encounter was when I was around 13 I guess.

I had been awake for a while but just lying in bed thinking. After a while I sat up and looked at my friend who was sleeping on the floor. I thought about waking her up but decided not too. I looked towards the end of where she was sleeping (i had a large half semi-circle mirror on the floor there) and saw a shadow figure sneaking up to the end of my bed. The figure had a round head, arms,legs and a torso.
All I can remember is freaking out. I kept looking at the end of my bed then back to the mirror... I don't remember what I did next.


The second time was midway last year.

I looked up to look at the clock and for a split second I saw a shadow figure. 
For the split second I saw it it looked like it was wearing a robe. It's head was just a big pointy mass attached to a flowing cape like body.


Thursday 9 May 2013

Sleep Confusion

Woke up and talked to my partner for a while, then we both agreed to go back to sleep cos it was about 7am.

I shut my eyes and slowly started drifting back to sleep. I knew I was still lying down but for some reason I thought my friend was next to me. 
A womans voice said my name. She sounded far away but still in the room, her voice was breathy. I said yes in my mind.
She said something I couldn't make out and my thought was it was my friend who was next to me talking to me.
The woman responded "(friends name)'s not here" to which I said 'what' out loud and my partner asked what I mean what. I told him not to worry I was just talking to someone. He got confused and started asking me more questions so I told him that I was half asleep and to not worry about it.

Saturday 13 April 2013

Birthday Wishes

Wow it's been a while since I have posted.

Well today is my birthday and of course people have given me stuff @u@
 But when I went to bed (5:30 ish) it was getting light and the birds were making all their annoying morning noises. I hid under the cover from the light to fall asleep when the birds went quiet for a second and a faint womans voice said to me "We all love you" I have no idea who she was or who 'we' are, but it didn't scare me... if anything it made me feel happy ^u^