My world has always felt different. As a child I was shy, withdrawn. It's hard to play the fit in game when you know deep down that you don't.





































Thursday 7 November 2013

Cat Nap Chat

During my cat nap today someone walked into my dream, sat on the bed in real life & said my name in my ear. Of course being me I woke up straight away, then came that weird time where I kept thinking I was awake but I wasn't.

At first I thought he was someone I knew but then I realized I didn't know that voice. 

I don't remember all that was said to me because I was trying so hard to get out of the dream like state I was in. 

He spoke calmly and softly in my ear. sometimes I was awake and sometimes I was stuck in-between. I remember the end half very well.
He told me to look at him, So I turned to look but nothing was there (I don't recall if I was stuck in-between or if I did it in real), I turned away to carry on trying to get up. Next he said "see", I moved my hands & feet till they moved in real. I stopped and was about to open my eyes when he said "I need you"

I pulled off the cover but noticed my legs we bare, I had fallen asleep in my leggins, I moved my hands & feet again and this time opened my eyes right away and pryed one eye open with my fingers.

I know some will think I was just asleep or that it was sleep paralysis, I've had that a few times and its alot different. 

I don't know how he wants me to help, all I know is that this is escalating really quickly... am I really ready for where this is heading?

Friday 1 November 2013

Curent Voices...

I forgot the other night I heard that faint distant voice again "Help me!" No idea ho I am meant to do that for her...

 Onto last night, I had drifted off to sleep when the next thing I know someone is whispering my name in my ear, would make sense that he knows my name by now