My world has always felt different. As a child I was shy, withdrawn. It's hard to play the fit in game when you know deep down that you don't.





































Thursday 30 May 2013

Light!

For about an hour or so now I keep seeing white things from the corner of my eyes. It comes from different places from the room and verys from mists to orbs and flashes. 
Normally I pass these things off as just my eyes playing tricks but it doesn't normally keep happening. Plus when I see something on one side of the room it will move about that side and I will see something move from one side of the room to the other before seeing on that side of the room. So the things I'm seeing are not really random.
So to help me feel less scared I started talking to it.
Lol just saw a very nice orb.... about 3 cm's. I'll get the phone and see if they are will to show them selfs up on a photo for everyone... as I'm sure they are seeing me write this. 
Will add if I get anything.

Sadly it left not long after first posting this... oh well :D

Monday 27 May 2013

Dreaming?

Last night I had another moment where I was not sure if I was dreaming or not.
The last few nights I have been taking the phone with me and recording for a wile to see if I can catch any voices... nothing has happened for a few days now.
I stopped the phone and went to sleep. At some point I believe i woke up and someone started talking. It took alot for me to speak.... can't remember if  I said it in my mine or out loud but I said 'Wait a minute' And tried my best to move from the fear. Then I rolled onto my back and it is at this point that I am not sure if I woke up from a dream  or just cos I was half asleep.
At any rate I rememberer mu phone was down the side and I couldn't be bothered to get it. So  just went back to sleep (~ T - T ~) I know I should of got it and then maybe I would have a voice for everyone to hear but all my thoughts were about going back too sleep.

Friday 24 May 2013

Awww love how cute!

Almost a year go now, I woke up and was thinking about getting out of bed. I decided to just hug my hubby for a while. I snuggled up to him and shut my eyes.  The second I shut my eyes a woman's voice started commenting about what I assume was me hugging my hubby. The only but I got was the last word she said which was 'Love'. 
Then I felt her go inside me. It felt like she push aside my soul a bit and wedged herself inside. My body thought against this. After a minute I felt her leave. 
I have never felt this before but I assume she tried possess me or something along those lines.

All I can say for certen is it felt weird and there is no room for anyone else in here.

Night-time/Daytime 1

Called 'Night-time/Daytime 1' cos I don't know how long this is going to go on for.



Night-time:

Anyways hubby just fell asleep so I snuggled up to him. I shut my eyes and hear a mans voice mutter something. Scares the crap out of me but pass it up to hubbys sleep talking. Snuggle back up to him again, this time he turn his face towards me and I can fell his breath on my face. This time a mans voice said something but much clearer than last time and I new it wasn't my hubby sleep talking. Could make out what he was saying due to my hubbys breathing.


Daytime:

Woke up and saw it was still too early to get up. Turnt around and started going back to sleep... I don't know if I feel asleep straight away but it felt like someone came into the bed room. They walked around the bed and up to my head. Sat down on the bed. I remember feeling the bed move when they sat down but didn't see anybody.
Then a great pressure on my whole body. Everything got darker and I was struggling to move. I found that I could move my arms about but could not control them. I managed to turn towards my hubby and tried my best to hit him with my arms. After I hit him a few times the weight lifted and I took a deep breath. I hardly ever have dreams that seem so real O-o so I dunno... that ones up too  you.

Thursday 23 May 2013

The Old Hag

I have tried looking this up on the internet but will only ever find accounts on some ugly old woman tormenting people, trying to suck out their life force and that kind of thing.

My experience with the old hag was different.

In the middle of dreaming weird things as always. I was standing in the middle of the street when a weird feeling came over me. The feeling of something not being right and as if something had invaded my dream that was not meant to be there.
I turned around and a couple of yards away was an old woman. Now for some reason it is hard to remember what she completely looked like.
I remember she had a long flowing dress/skirt on but I knew she was floating off the ground. Eyes shut. Her face was full of love, with a loving smile but covered in wrinkles. Her hair was up in what I believe was a bun.
Her arms were stretched out, as if wanting a hug. The only thing was she struck me with fear. She was slowly floating towards me and the fear I felt was something I hadn't felt for a long while. My body screamed for me to wake up and so I did. 

Now when I was a kid I used to have alot of nightmares, so just as people teach them self's to lucid dream I tough myself  to wake up. Its a nice trick to learn. When a bad dream starts my body and mind will say to me that I'm dreaming and to wake up.


Thinking it was a one off I went back to sleep. A big mistake.

I had been dreaming for a while... from what I remember I was working in a restaurant or something along the lines.
I had to take the rubbish out the back. The bins were next to the door, which I shut behind me as you would, and behind me was a metal fence and it went beside me and attached to the wall of the building I had just came out off.
I was just about to go back inside when I got that feeling again. I looked to my right and there coming towards me was the old hag again... her loving face smiling at me again. Fear coursed though my very soul. And this time I was trapped.

She had come up the ally way through the only way possible. Behind me was a dead end. I quickly tried the door but it was shut. My entire existence screamed at me, what ever would happen if she got me would be a fate worse than death and there would be no-way out.
Once again my body and mind told me to wake up... but something was wrong. No matter how hard I tried it wasn't working. She was getting closer and closer and my body was screaming loader and loader at me. That's when it stopped trying to wake me up the normal way and told me to scream.

My only hope was to scream out load and have my hubby hear. I tried to scream... but no sound came out... not in the dream or in real. I shut my eyes and tried over and over untill this little tiny mouse volume scream came out of my mouth in real and woke me up.

This is the only time I have ever woke up screaming. I stayed awake after that and it took me a while to fall asleep that night cos I was so scared that she would be back.

I have never seen her again and never want to.

Stairs

Walking up the creeky stairs  used to always hear someone say stuff to me from the balcony. After a while I used to stop and ask what they said but I never did find out what.... stupid noises stairs stopped me from hearing her properly.

Walk in center?

At first it was nice having nothing in the house (still is) but I'm start to feel like a freaking walk in center.... It seems more and more that random ones are walking in and saying weird things to me while I'm in bed.

Today I was lying in by cos I didn't want to get out yet but was awake. 
"hay" Opened my eyes looked about and carried on just lying there


Friday 17 May 2013

Shouting Whispers

At about 6-7pm I  went for a nap cos I only got 4-5 hours sleep least night.
Lying down for a few minutes I heard someone whisper something short. 
I pretended no to hear it. The person then whispered it to the point of nearly shouting to get my attention. I couldn't make out what they were saying but it seemed only about 3 words long. 
It stopped with that.


Things are happening more and more lately.

Forgotten Shadow

It slipped my mind but I have seen another shadow figure. 
It happened in the middle of the night for a split second so I forgot.

I have sleeping problems.... one of the problems I have is that I wake up for a few minutes every hour or so.
I woke up at some point and opened my eyes. Just a few feet away from me was a shadow figure leaning slightly over the cage (had a guinea pig in at the time), strangely thought nothing of it and went straight back to sleep again

Wednesday 15 May 2013

Foot-Tastic

Just a little random thing that happened about half a year ago.

Was talking to my hubby while looking at the floor. 
(We both were sitting on the floor for some reason that I can't remember)
Turned my head to the side slightly, and in the gap between my hubby's leg and foot I saw a dirty foot and an ankle. (couldn't see more cos hubby was in the way) 
It was only for a split second and I didn't find it scary... just weird.


OH! just for random info... it would of been the persons right foot & they would of been face my way.

Monday 13 May 2013

Shadow People

I have only ever seen 2 shadow people in my life time so far.

My first encounter was when I was around 13 I guess.

I had been awake for a while but just lying in bed thinking. After a while I sat up and looked at my friend who was sleeping on the floor. I thought about waking her up but decided not too. I looked towards the end of where she was sleeping (i had a large half semi-circle mirror on the floor there) and saw a shadow figure sneaking up to the end of my bed. The figure had a round head, arms,legs and a torso.
All I can remember is freaking out. I kept looking at the end of my bed then back to the mirror... I don't remember what I did next.


The second time was midway last year.

I looked up to look at the clock and for a split second I saw a shadow figure. 
For the split second I saw it it looked like it was wearing a robe. It's head was just a big pointy mass attached to a flowing cape like body.


Thursday 9 May 2013

Sleep Confusion

Woke up and talked to my partner for a while, then we both agreed to go back to sleep cos it was about 7am.

I shut my eyes and slowly started drifting back to sleep. I knew I was still lying down but for some reason I thought my friend was next to me. 
A womans voice said my name. She sounded far away but still in the room, her voice was breathy. I said yes in my mind.
She said something I couldn't make out and my thought was it was my friend who was next to me talking to me.
The woman responded "(friends name)'s not here" to which I said 'what' out loud and my partner asked what I mean what. I told him not to worry I was just talking to someone. He got confused and started asking me more questions so I told him that I was half asleep and to not worry about it.